The plan was for a three day jaunt over to Salcombe, to finish filming my 'sailing the Kingsbridge estuary' series of vlogs. Yes I know, it has been a series four years in the making - sorry about that!
The plan was simple:
- Depart Plymouth on an outgoing spring tide
- Head east at an average of 3 kts using the favourable tidal stream in the morning before it turned westwards in the afternoon
- Overnight at Frogmore creek
- Spend Tuesday sailing around Start Point into Slapton bay and returning to Salcombe to overnight up at Kingsbridge area before
- Return home on Wednesday
The weather forecasts are favourable with winds and conditions.
Normally I spend a week or so planning such a cruise but this time I put it together in two days. A rare case of impulsiveness for me and so it feels slightly rushed!
I'd like to tell you I'm confident about this trip but that wouldn't be true. I've done Plymouth to Salcombe several times before and so know the sailing area well. But this trip is different. For the first time ever, I have some niggly little doubts right at the back of my mind. Don't know why, but there they are.
I've not been feeling well recently, a long term medical condition has been flaring up and catching me off guard. The state of the trailer (see previous posts) has rattled me slightly as well. Cleared for 'a few more short four mile journeys to and from the local marina' by a local trailer servicing company, I have my niggly doubts on that assessment. Will those wheel hub bearings really hold up for one last trip before the new replacement trailer arrives at the end of September?
And, most irritatingly, I've forgotten most of my passage planning skillset, so long ago is it since I have done an inshore coastal passage anywhere.
Now when I used to do lots of mountaineering and expedition work, niggly doubts had me going back to the drawing board to reassess everything! So why don't I do it now?
Moral of this tale? Listen to those inner voice warnings and don't ignore them!
I pack Arwen the night before and pull her off the driveway. Onboard are the normal camp cruising gear, food for three days and some astrophotography gear and a drone. I have a quick getaway in the morning, on the slip at 8am and am launching by 8.45am. High water was around 0715.
The inshore weather forecasts predict:
- N/NE, variable F2/3; slight to smooth
- Changing in afternoon to variable F2 - 4, E/NE, smooth to slight
- General forecast is for sunny spells, 21C, gusts force 3 or 4, visibility VG; showers at 5pm
- Tidal flow is easterly and then slack water for the morning changing to a westerly flow for the afternoon (The last few miles will be against the tidal flow and if need be I will use the outboard)
My passage plan is simple with escape points at the River Yealm, Burgh Island, Thurlestone Cove and Inner Hope Cove. I estimate a 6/7 hr passage coinciding with arrival on an incoming tide. I can enter Frogmore Creek from around 1730. Evening high water is 1954.
Everything is fine until I reach Burgh Island. Progress is a little slower than anticipated but enjoyable and Arwen averages around 2.8 kts. Many yachts are motor cruising for the faster passage. I have gone slightly further out to sea than I anticipated and I'm around 3.5 miles offshore. I did resort to using the outboard for a two mile stretch across Stoke Bay when the winds dropped away to practically nothing (and again when the tidal flow changed and I was practically at a standstill). Despite all this, my passage plan waypoint times are not that far out and I arrive off Burgh Island just over 20 minutes past my ETA.
But now the north easterlies have changed to easterlies and are bang on the bow and earlier than predicted. They are far stronger too. Big gusts and patches of white horses combined with some big wave troughs and crests (lumpy seas). Arwen tacks 60 degrees off the wind when close hauled and whilst the yachts around me are holding a shorter better course, closer to the wind, I'm not fairing so well.. It's bouncy to say the least.
Inevitably I'm sea sick just past Bolt Tail. Violently so. I'm two miles off shore now. Closing inshore doesn't seem to have helped either. I make little to no progress eastwards and the hoped for calmer waters inshore don't seem to exist. But then 'calmer waters' is a relative term isn't it. It depends on what you consider to be calmer. I am pretty sure sea sick people don't make sensible judgements on that score!
A set of conditions are now coming together and a potential disaster could be imminent:
- I've been violently sea sick three times
- I'm heaving over the leeward side in lumpy conditions in an open boat with a small freeboard
- We have a nasty corkscrewing motion AND
- I don't think I have got Arwen's trim correct. She is plunging down into the troughs and clambering slowly up the peaks. I think there is too much stowed upfront.
- Spray is inbound over the coaming and yet it isn't overly windy whilst weather-helm is acceptable. I haven't felt the need to reef yet but I am getting wet.....and cold
- When I try to motor-sail and then motor with the sail furled, the outboard is protesting. The shaft is in and out of the water, sometimes over revving; and then it has started to cut out and struggling during restarts. Ominously, smoke periodically appears from under the cowling to be rapidly whisked away on the winds
- The westerly currents are building, 1.4kts against me now
I consider my options. Some four miles to go; 2 miles offshore and struggling. It is time to seek some 'sheltered water' for a calm down and rethink and so I tack Arwen around gingerly and head back downwind for Inner Hope Cove.
I am feeling defeated. The conditions aren't that onerous. Lumpy yes, dangerous not really.
Anchored a while in the lee of Bolt Tail and considering my options, that inner niggly voice is chastising me. "You should have listened! Your passage planning skills are rusty. You KNOW you get sea sick!! You NEVER seem to sail well or cope with these conditions. It happened t you before two years ago!"
The imp on my shoulder is whispering in my ear "You are such a lightweight defeatist whoosy".
I try again, but within a mile of leaving Inner Hope, I am once more sea sick. Is this my characteristic dogged persistence (family would say stubbornness by the way) or just plain stupidity at work? Common sense now needs to prevail.
I admit defeat and turn back west and downwind. I can make for the Yealm and overnight there. (Why I didn't just overnight at Hope Cove, I have no idea but during times of stress and illness, you don't always make rationale decisions do you?)
Salcombe can wait until tomorrow when winds are predicted to be from the north and of far less gusty power. I'm working on the self delusional principle that good seamanship is about judging conditions, skill level and health and making sensible pragmatic decisions.
In reality, I've had enough for one day, but, even as I surf downwind, I feel I have given up too easily and, on reflection, I am disappointed with myself.
(Now, I am not a brilliant experienced sailor, as anyone who has read my blog or seen my videos will know. Coming to boat building and sailing late in life, it isn't my natural environment in which I feel most comfortable operating in. My boat handling is ok- ish; my general safety and navigation skills good. Sail setting and trimming skills are, lets be honest, dismal. Despite years of trying, I have never quite understood or mastered these arts. I'm an amateur sailor who plays safe, knows his limitations and doesn't take risks (which is daft really, because you only gain experience by testing yourself, which is what I did in my mountaineering days and why I used to be really, really good at it). I have, however, made passage to Salcombe several times before in calmer sea conditions and with southerly or South westerly winds. I've sailed down to Fowey several times as well, so I know, deep down, that I do have sufficient skills to undertake such journeys safely in settled conditions).
Anyway, I have been digressing. Let's continue the day's story. It gets worse!
By now my trusty outboard is refusing to cooperate. It goes for a few minutes before cutting out. Not wanting to damage it further, I raise it out of the water onto its bracket, in the knowledge that I am now going to have to sail and row into the Yealm and up river for an overnight anchorage. This will test my seamanship skills to say the least but I'm not unduly alarmed. Uncomfortable and feeling very poorly yes (bit like having high altitude mountain sickness but knowing you have still got to manage a safe descent). I'm heading downwind, surfing some of the waves and making 4.8 kts. I'm in control, I'm still feeling sick but I've grown accustom to the downwind conditions. Confidence is growing. Of course I can sail into the narrow Yealm entrance channel, fitting through the gap between the bar end and the rocky foreshore. Rowing up between the rows of moored boats? No problem, its an incoming tide. Easy!
It's all so frustrating to be honest, but sometimes you have to go with the flow, literally. Why battle upwind in troughs, big gusts and against a tidal flow for a few more hours while being sea sick? That's not fun or necessary; or at least that's what I keep telling myself in an effort to justify my decision making! With Oesophagus related health problems already, my chest is taking some punishment and I know I can't sustain much more.
(As an aside, weirdly in a nice kind of way, I'm comforted by the number of larger yachts who have opted for motor sailing to Salcombe or who had given up and turned around, heading back to the Sound, just like me).
As we approach Wembury Bay, a few afternoon PAN-PAN calls show that other vessels are not faring so well either. Two small leisure fishing boats report transmission failures and request help from Falmouth coastguard regarding tows from larger yachts back to Plymouth. Ahead I watched one large yacht standing 30m off a small fishing boat, eventually getting a tow onboard it. On shore, its sunny with gentle breezes. A mile or to offshore and its steady force 3 winds with some huge gusts! Funny though how this has turned the sea lumpy!
I enter the Yealm area, and I'm violently sick once again. This time its exceedingly painful, akin to heart attack pain, as any Dysphagia sufferers will know. Discretion is the better part of valour and all that. Although I'm lined up for the narrow channel entry,recognising its practically head to wind with limited tacking options because of the state of the tide and the narrow channel between bar and cliff edges, I'm up for it, ready to row the short distance to Cellars Beach.
But, I'm not really, for within my head, this little voice is saying, 'Head for home Steve. Sail another day'.
With no working outboard, this is going to be a first. All the way back into Sutton pool and then making the turn eastwards into one of the QAB marina ramp canals, all under sail. Never done this before! Its going to be so much FUN!
Wind from the NE, I'm confident I can do this and I prepare Arwen in Jennycliffe Bay, attaching fenders and sorting mooring warps for coming alongside. Unshipping oars for the last 50m row up the north slip entrance canal. I certainly wont be sailing up the southern slip canal that's for sure! Way too narrow for sailing or rowing!
Just before Mountbatten pier, I'm sick one final time and finally, I realise I am beaten. I mean how many times can a man be sea sick? There isn't anything else to bring back up (forgive that potential unpleasant mental image - I apologise).
Dizzy and with chest pains, I sail to a vacant mooring in the Cattedown, picking it up first time (wind against tide conditions - the number of times I have tried that before and failed in the past - go figure). Exhausted, I try to regroup and recover sufficiently for the last 400m into Sutton Pool and around to the north slip. Warps and fenders are ready, as are oars. Can I really do this? Course I can!
I tentatively eye the outboard, and before I know it, I've drop it into position and give it 'one last pull'.
It splutters, it smokes, it coughs. It cuts out twice and then starts on the third attempt, holding a steadier 'phutt phutt' than it has done all the rest of today. It carries me the 400 metres or so across the Cattedown, past the tourist boats and water taxis and into the south canal. All my warps and fenders are on the wrong side but who cares at this point! I don't thats for sure!
Within 15m of the pontoon, it finally splutters, coughs, judders violently and dies. But, crucially, I have enough 'way on' to slowly drift in! I come to a gentle stop against the pontoon with barely a bump, lined up alongside a mooring cleat. It looks a really good and professional arrival!
I cannot begin to describe the feeling of relief as I step shakily onto the pontoon. My legs are wobbling, my stomach contracting. People in the distance seem to be dancing but I think its my eyes!
As I try to regain some composure and stop myself from hurling over the slipway, a fellow small boat dinghy cruiser, packing away his Swallow Boats 'Bayraider' comes across to introduce himself. Chris, from Dorset has recognised Arwen from my blog and Youtube channel. He and his wife have just finished a lovely six day cruise from Torbay, via Dartmouth, Salcombe and up the Lynher to St Germans. They have clearly enjoyed themselves and listening to their adventures actually has a calming, soothing, restorative effect on my battered soul.
I try to sound coherent, relaxed and enthusiastic. In reality? I'm just thankful that I don't introduce myself by hurling up over their feet. Their trip sounds wonderful, their enthusiasm is infectious. Their boat is truly stunning.
(Chris, if you are reading this, thank you for bringing a wonderful sense of order and calm to my chaotic day - I'm forever grateful and it was a great pleasure meeting you both. I'm glad you had such a great time cruising my local waters).
The 'boss' duly arrives at QAB, concerned for my welfare. My poor oesophagus and stomach have taken a severe battering and we know its going to be an unpleasant few days with a possible hospital check to assess the damage done. (As it is, I have managed to recover far more quickly than we were all expecting, and although I've had severe chest pain for a few days, it is fading and no long term aggravation to my existing condition seems to have been done. Perhaps that 'cowardly' decision to turn back downwind probably saved me this time).
I'd like to say the stress of the day stops here but sadly it doesn't!
We manage to get to within just under a mile of the house before there is an awful crunch sound followed by the loudest knocking I have ever heard. One of the wheel bearings has collapsed completely. At 2 mph we limp home through residential roads sounding like a 'rumbling tank with a transmission problem'. My heart is pounding! The Boss? She is just her calm, normal stoic self! I married an 'absolute keeper'!!
And so here we are. It is the early hours of the next day and I have been unable to sleep. time for some rueful reflections.
The trailer is back on the sloping drive but it will not be coming off it again. Literally as we went over the kerb stone at the drive entrance, the other hub collapsed. The axle stubs are not looking good. The bearings have popped at the back. The castellated nuts are the only things holding the wheels on.
The 'Yep there are a few more trips in her yet' assessment of the local trailer centre engineers is out a bit. To be fair, they did a through check and both hubs seemed as if they would last for a few more trips. They had, they said, seen far worse. However, I think, unwittingly, I am the cause of this final collapse. In packing Arwen the night before, I added in extra weight from her normal day cruising load - astrophotography camera gear and a drone. I carried more water than was necessary (why, I have no idea but I rushed the planning you see. I didn't give it due thought, care and diligence!)
I think this extra weight was the final straw!
So now what to do?
Come end of September, I have a new trailer arriving and an old one that is not roadworthy and cannot go back on the road (well I can just about pull it off the drive and park it on the road outside the house but that is literally it).
A conundrum. 'How do I get an empty boat off one trailer and onto the other?'
And then, 'how do I get rid of the old trailer?'
Answers on a postcard.
So far we have
- getting eight neighbours to lift Arwen off the old trailer onto the driveway and then out onto the road and onto the new trailer. Then cutting up the old trailer with an angle grinder and getting a local scrap merchant to come and collect it. (I can use the same neighbours who twelve years ago, helped me get her out of the garage and rolled her over and onto the first trailer. As for a local scrap merchant, that will be more problematic I expect).
- as above but then getting the local scrap merchant to bring a low loader and the ease the old trailer off the drive onto the road with the car so that he can then load it up and take it away.
- find a low loader driver who could winch boat and trailer off the road and take it to QAB marina where I could attach it to the car, back it down the slipway, float off Arwen and then have the old trailer winched back onto the low loader and taken off to the scrap merchant.
The moral of this particular bit of the day's story is about effective trailer maintenance. Serves me right! A painful lesson learned.
In the meantime, Arwen was emptied of everything. The garage is now full of boating gear. Trips are on hold until the trailer transfer dilemma is resolved. And, I am wondering whether my 'south coast passage adventures' are behind me now.
Sea sickness is becoming a real threat to my health and previous Doctors have warned me about the damage sickness bouts can do. I am very careful with what I eat, leading a boring culinary lifestyle out of necessity. I am very careful about food hygiene and menus when I travel, especially abroad.
A new trailer enables me to tow Arwen to new sailing destinations. I could travel to the Fal, stay at St Just and do a number of day cruises in the area. I could do short overnight trips in fair conditions e.g. across to Helford for example (and then explore for a few days the Helford estuary). I could tow her further afield. I have always wanted to sail around the Milford Sound area, the Broads and some of the Lakes in the Lake District. Poole Harbour looks an interesting destination as well.
But, the days of dreaming about coastal sailing Plymouth to Salcombe, Salcombe to Dartmouth, Dartmouth to Torquay and beyond; or heading west down to Fowey and on to Falmouth? Those dreams may be on hold. Sadly, I am coming to the realisation that from a skill level and just a medical viewpoint, unless done in calm conditions, these coastal voyaging days are probably now behind me. Anyway, lets face it, we all know I really suck at coastal passage planning and in confused seas, I get really, really ill!
And besides, what do I have to say in any vlog or blog I do? My vlogs have always been video diaries for myself, saved on YouTube out of convenience. My blog is not exactly literary gold is it? I'm just a very amateur sailor with questionable, dodgy sailing ( and boat building) skills. My stuff is the kind of stuff used to show people 'what not to do'!
Its time to go, to try and catch some sleep. I'm shattered, bruised, battered and, not surprisingly, feeling very hungry and thirsty 😊. I'm sure after a good night's sleep (please God, there isn't much of the night left, so help me out here.....?), I will return to being my normal optimistic, well balanced, self. Always the optimist, when I'm feeling better, I will have probably changed my mind. After all, I've always been an adventurous independent traveller type. When under a boom tent or in my treasured bivvy bag, cooking on my beloved Trangia, that's when I'm really happy and chilled.
Normal service will be resumed in a few days........... I think!
In the meantime....... ALWAYS, ALWAYS listen to the niggling doubts and do another rethink based on them! It doesn't mean don't go...it just means 'have you been diligent and careful enough in your thinking and your planning?' 😟